I live in fear

I was paid in cash & food.I enjoyed the conversation.I  mowed the lawn.I dug a hole 1 feet deep.I weeded. I turned some soil. I moved the compost. I used a spade to clear the edge of the sprawling lawn.I tore out nasturtiums 

I live in fear of the day some one on the bus, seeing me as elderly, offers me their seat. ( Feeling none of the excitement that i did on discovering my first pimple.)
I will bus less:
i will circumvent  this possibility.