M. was at peace on that last day. Just the night before he'd remarked: " At least she did it right." , about a workmate who had queue jumped death. I didn't pick up on how lethal his words were. We'd never really connected but a lasting joy is the thought of us both fucked up on LSD at a Cramps gig. There, Lux Interior still climbs the velvet curtains of my filmic memory while M. shouts " I'm a God, he's a God, you're a God, we're all Gods".
We considered bitchery a fulfilling past time, back then. So, when I called him on his last day alive, I started to rant about an older homo who was a particular target of ours. But M. was a breeze, a ghost, a failing transmission sliding into memory.
It is still a scientific wonder that he got the noose over his head.
X's place was better stocked with pharmaceuticals than a Chemmart, so M helped himself and took tablets numbering in hundreds. Then there was the mead to take him to the Gods: Bundy rum.
But he got the noose on. It left its mark.
At last I saw his true beauty as he dusted light tipped ripples on a fast flowing creek heading to sea.
We considered bitchery a fulfilling past time, back then. So, when I called him on his last day alive, I started to rant about an older homo who was a particular target of ours. But M. was a breeze, a ghost, a failing transmission sliding into memory.
It is still a scientific wonder that he got the noose over his head.
X's place was better stocked with pharmaceuticals than a Chemmart, so M helped himself and took tablets numbering in hundreds. Then there was the mead to take him to the Gods: Bundy rum.
But he got the noose on. It left its mark.
At last I saw his true beauty as he dusted light tipped ripples on a fast flowing creek heading to sea.
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